Would You Ever Go Back To The Kingdom Hall?

I don't think I can. I am afraid that I would stand up sometime during the meeting and projectile vomit the information I've learned to the congregation. I can no longer discuss this in a calm, constructive, discreet way. I am rabid when it comes to disseminating all the new information I have....

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Only to pick up my family. Or drop them off. It would have to be on fire otherwise. And even then, should we not wait for qualified individuals to assist us in an emergency, rather than presumptuously running ahead of the arrangements of the 'superior authorities'? Since they were placed in their relative positions by Jehovah himself, let us wait on him to resolve matters.

I think I'm just too hurt and angry about everything to consider it. Once you've been ostracized, people never look at you the same way again. In the back of their minds, they're always running your 'theocratic history' through their heads if they know about it--and if they don't know, anyone who's known you long enough will be glad to tell them.

The chairman of my judicial committee concluded by saying that I needed to be humbled. That is, to suspend logic and reason, and accept dishonesty, propaganda techniques, and the taking of scriptures out of context. I guess I'm just not 'humble' (read: stupid) enough yet to go back.

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