Suzzane
I am going to believe you are real until you say you are not. The reason is many years ago I came on this board with situation in which I thought I was being harassed by demons. I took a real verbal/ written unecessary beating by the board members.
I'lll be nicer b/c you probably are sitting there praying and scared. First, if the demons wanted to kill you they could. IF Jehovah wanted to He could. They want. I say this to help you get some reality. You are scaring youself to death. It is called hysteria. It feels just like the real thing.
If you can remove yoursef to a friends house and just put some time and distance it would help. Just keep saying this" If Satan is all poweful , why would he want a crummy job like scaring a bunch of kids by touching them? " For heavens sake, get a better job. All sarcarsm aside, if praying makes you feel better, do it and loudly and long remove yoursef from your mom's home.
I would lthen find a therapist and tell them what you told us. It is not your fault. Believing in demons does not make you crazy if is a part of a religion you grew up with and everyone believed it. So JWS fit that criteria.
so I guess the spelling police will pull out their big yellow highlighter. :) for me.
hang on if you are for real, we can help you.
If you are joking , line up so we can all kick your arse.
