Heres the situation...
Met a girl I am tottally infatuated with. I could just hang out with her and not have sex but she has not been in a relationship in a year and shes pretty horny. Im a normal dude so I dont want to refuse her.
I cant decide if Im rationalizing my feelings. The JW mindset is still a bother so I cant see clearly.
On one hand I tell myself dont do it. It will cloud my judgement and hers to see if we are good marriage mates. She will fall in love too fast from getting that involved and I will overlook things I might not if I wasnt clouded. And I dont want to loose Gods favor.
The other hand says to do it. This wouldnt be a self serving experiance. I truely want to please her. And I feel she truely wants to please me. So this isnt some random selfish hookup. It would be very loving. Because of the JW crap in my head I dont take anything they teach seriously anymore. Im more of a love and peace hippy. Whats wrong with connecting with someone on that deep level? That kind of thing doesnt feel wrong. No one gets hurt. Everyones needs are met. And love is the motivating force behind it.
I am having too much trouble being neutral on this. I need an outsiders view.
I do believe in God and the bible. So plain old logic wont work. Or else I would go for it. Displeasing God is what this is all about. So please reply with my beliefs in mind.