Man, I love this place, lots of replies, I didnt even get on the computer last night because I had some pretty interesting conversations with my wife and my dad. My wife didnt even really let me talk to her, she just said "you study so much and I see how hard you research things, but your lesson is never underlined, I wish you put this same type of effort into theocratic things".......then she slept in another room, so there goes that...
My dad simply says stuff like "well the organization is imperfect, Jehovah doesnt have to step in on every little thing that is wrong, so there are alot of things that take place that we dont like, but Jehovah will correct it when he's ready, it's not up to us"
My mom likes to use this on me "You found what on Charles Russell??? Oh boy, that's old news, the light has gotten so much brighter since then, I wouldnt even concern myself with that nonsense"
It's frustrating to the point where I think I'm going to have to make these changes regardless if I can help them or not. My personal choice is this, I only attend meetings 2 or 3 times a month, I never go out in service, hardly ever, I never give talks, I dont have any privileges because I've been on silent reproof since January of 2007, and I have the prayer restriction still hanging over me, lol, lol, lol, nobody really talks to me, and my best friend who's like a brother to me, got disfellowshipped last week, so I figure soon as I get enough money to support myself on my own, I'm out of here. To be honest, these economic times are rough, and me and my wife need each other's help, we're a team when it comes to our bills, gas money, food, and other miscellaneous things, when it gets real hard....sometimes my parents will send us a little something to help us out. I know if I leave the organization, I will be completely on my own again, which I havent been for 3 1/2 years, so I'm gonna prepare for the worst, and find somewhere to live where I know I can handle myself alone until I'm able to find something better. As far as friends, I have my ex-witness cousin who says her door is always open in Atlanta, and the best man of my wedding is now a gay man, so he's not a witness anymore, he knows exactly what I'm going through as well. I have many options, it's just that each day that passes I see more and more how me being alone because of this piece of shit cult and mind frame of witnesses is about to put me through a loooong journey, but I'm ready to take it.
Thanks to daniel-p for reassuring my doubts about this cult, I feel stronger mentally for the tasks ahead of me, thank you. Also yeah I'm not sure where I wanna head next far as faith goes, but I am curious to know what a real christian is, the more I see that JW's are NOT chrisitans the more I wanna learn you know?
Nelly- thanks, yeah I have lots of friends that are not witnesses that will literally die for me, to bad I cant say the same about anyone else in the organization, thanks for your words.
whoknows- preciate what you said, sorry to hear/read your situation, all advise is welcome
Deputy Dog- I wont be able to attend that, but I'm interested in learning more, cause my family is acting like I've committed the unforgivable sin since I said I'm not going to our circuit assembly this weekend, lol.
chalam- Once again, lots and lots of love for breaking down those view points, I love when you do that, lol, that really helps to get insight like that, trust me when I tell you it doesnt go unnoticed and it sticks with me, even when you do it in other threads.
PSacremento- Thanks I'll keep that in mind, preciate ya stoppin by
VoidEater- You make great points, really made me think, at this point as you can see, I think I know what I have to do, it's just gonna be a hard journey to take, but it's now or never to me, thanks for taking the time to do that for me, means alot.
Emptyinside- Thanks, yeah I feel like you, I'm looking forward to when this is all over.
Diamondiiz- Thanks for the advise, I will keep that in mind, I'm sure it will go along way in making sure I dont present my cases the wrong way, presentation is everything, just ask a witness, lol.
JWFacts- Wow! Never seen that movie, but makes alot of sense, yeah I cant live this lie any longer, it's literally eating me alive, I'm prepared for the worst at this point, but whatever happens happens, all I know is I'm getting out and fast!
Once again thanks to everybody that dropped by, I'll be on the forum tonight, I gotta catch up on some topics I missed, preciate you all welcoming me aboard, look forward to getting to know all of you more, chat with you guys soon, peace.
