Just wanted to start off with saying I can relate to the handle you have chosen to use on here.
I would dare say that at some point in all our lives we have each felt empty inside. The good thing is tho that
something always comes along to fill that empty spot/space. It might take hours,days,weeks, months or longer
but when something comes along to fill that void we feel so refreshed. And it will happen.
Sometimes if we don't like our current situation then it is good to do a self analysis or an inventory of ourself and
see what is it that we can change to improve our lot in life. If every day we get up at 8:05 a.m. and miss the bus then
soon we realize that we need to adjust our clock to wake up earlier. I know this example is over simplifying something
which is much more complex, but the point is there is always things we can change to get a different outcome.
Everyone deserves a good companion/partner in life and you are no different. Even in Genesis it talks about that it was
not good for the man to continue alone. So what you describe is very much a part of our make-up.
I'm glad you decided to do more than just be a lurker. Just think that is one small step of change already.
Who knows what changes are in store for you in the near future? It can be a most pleasant journey if you let it be.
Just don't try to absorb everything all at once. Take your time and always do as the scriptures in the bible tells
us, "Make sure of all things hold fast to what is fine."
And as Jesus said you will know the truth and the truth will set you free. If something is true it will have the ring of truth to it
no matter who says it.
Just hang in there and don't give up. We will be rooting for you.