My dad recently told all the kids that he has terminal cancer. He is going to die... could be in a month... could be in a year.
All the kids recently visited my parents over last weekend. I was allowed to come too due to the "family business" clause in the WTS rules.
Yesterday I cried... I'm still crying a bit today and am feeling numb. I feel like I did when I first DAed 11 years ago.
My dad briefly expressed his hope that I would some day "love Jehovah again some day". There is no way I could possibly go back to that religion... it would literally kill me. There is no way I could survive.
I've got work and other things I need to keep going. I'm not sure how I'm going to keep it together.