Feeling numb... feeling like I did when I first DAed.

by Elsewhere 49 Replies latest jw friends

  • Elsewhere

    My dad recently told all the kids that he has terminal cancer. He is going to die... could be in a month... could be in a year.

    All the kids recently visited my parents over last weekend. I was allowed to come too due to the "family business" clause in the WTS rules.

    Yesterday I cried... I'm still crying a bit today and am feeling numb. I feel like I did when I first DAed 11 years ago.

    My dad briefly expressed his hope that I would some day "love Jehovah again some day". There is no way I could possibly go back to that religion... it would literally kill me. There is no way I could survive.

    I've got work and other things I need to keep going. I'm not sure how I'm going to keep it together.

  • undercover

    My thoughts are with you and your family, Elsewhere...

    I have no advice or words really other than to say we're here to listen...

  • journey-on

    ((((Elsewhere)))). So sorry you are going to have to go through this. Stay busy with your hands, my friend. It helps. (I'm speaking from personal experience.)

  • yknot


    He loves you and is only expressing his fears based on his own personal belief. According to your current beliefs it really doesn't matter so rather then get bogged down too much in religiousity see this time for what it is.......and embrace every last moment he is with yall, forgiving what needs to be let go in order to find closure that allows yall to be together at the end of his time in peace. Let love be the uniting force.

    Love and good vibes (and a few sneaked in prayers too) for you and your family

  • hemp lover
    hemp lover

    I'm really sorry. I've been where you are and it hurts like hell, especially when you haven't seen or talked to them for so long and then suddenly the door's open, however briefly.

    What was it like to be around your family again? How did they treat you?


  • angel eyes
    angel eyes

    no words can help you through this sad time. Thinking of you .

  • PSacramento

    Sorry to hear that elsewhere, truly.

    My Our Father give you the strength you need in the difficult times to come.

    It is sad that your father still equates your lack of love for the WT as lack of love for God, I am sure God overlooks such callus remarks, try your best to do so also.

    My prayers are with you and your family.



    There are days when nothing go`s right..


    Theres not a dam thing you can do about it..

    Stay busy,and keep going..

    These are the Days,you have to Soldier it out..


  • Elsewhere

    I've known others who would keep busy to get through things. My problem is that I shut down at times like this. It's a struggle to do anything.

    To make it worse, there are rumors of more lay-offs coming at work.

    Just too much.

  • snowbird
    My problem is that I shut down at times like this.

    My oldest daughter does that.

    I'm pulling for you.


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