Welcome, hikaru. I was beginning to wonder if you were a hit-and-run poster. I'm glad some of our advice helped. If you don't mind my asking, what did you find most helpful?
Is it too late?
I have one question: Were you happy with your associates in the congregation?
You sought a relationship with a non-JW boy, so I have to assume you weren't. Therefore, what makes you think that you will be happy spending an ETERNITY within your congregation in "paradise"? I second rebel's advice.
"First make a list of the reasons why you believe the GT is coming. Then research them one by one. Compare current stats to stats applicable to the thousands (millions) of years of human history. "
didn't read everything but if your question was is what you did an unforgivable sin then the answer is no it is not.
and neither is your hair lol