First, let me say it is scary posting here for me. If my past self could see me now! I am a MS, been so for about 12 years. For the last few pressured to be an Elder. I have been having my own crisis, and have been disolusioned for about a year with the "truth" Seeing the way people are treated (Pharisees!!! Hello!) not to mention the disgusting scandels (UN etc). My wife has no idea, but fortunately is a typical R&F and has no problem missing meetings and service. I am in a really weird place right now, and have been reading this board non stop...I feel sick to my stomach at times, and light headed...This was THE TRUTH! Right!? Dangit. What crazyness. I am so glad there are some very reasonably people here who make great comments. I have just watched the 'missionary interview' by V (with A@G as the interviewee) wow!
It's so interesting too to see the wide range of Elders, former Elders, MSs, R&Fs etc...all with the same anger, and sometimes heartbreak. Thanks for all your comments and expeirences. This is a good place to come for some support. It would be great to hear from some more insiders at Bethel...maybe a CO or DO could join?? ...Just waiting for the whole thing to slowly fade away...