*sobbing*
I love my Dad & Mom so much. They are just so involved with the religion and will not see any other point of few. My son is with my parents spending his first week of summer vacation with them. I called to check on him. My other sister that is df'd will not let her kids go, so my parents are upset. I talked to Dad and tried to explain to him why she & I are upset about being outcast from the family. He kept saying that nothing is going to interfere with his relationship with Jehovah. I asked him, not even your own child? He said no. He said I am looking at today and he needs to look at his everlasting life in the future. I asked him why he would listen to what men in Bethel say regarding his family and other issues. He kept saying the disfellowshipping issue is bible based and we did this to ourselves. He then told me I am an Apostate and that he knows I evidently read apostate info and that is how I know what is going on with the Society, a lot of times before they do. He said my thinking is very dangerous. I asked him, "Am I not to be able to think for myself and do research on any subject I want; instead of just listening to 12 men?" He said he not what the society or men in Bethel say it's all in the bible. He said I studied the truth and was baptized. I said "yeah, I was 13!!!!!!!!!!!!! and now I have to live with a mistake I made when I was a child" His cell phone then went out....
I called back & got mom. She said dad is not mad he is just upset. I said told her I know, I feel the same way. I'm upset, damnit!!!! She then said she cannot believe that two of her children have left Jehovah. I told her I just don't believe in any of it. I did tell her I loved them both.
Nothing has changed from they way it has been, it just feels like fresh wounds everytime!!!!!
Thanks for letting me vent...I'm not crying as bad now!