Welcome str8 (you must have the longest name of anyone on here)
I'm not going to say anything the rights or wrongs, about being gay etc. Let just say that in my teens been there done that, got the T-shirt.
But ended up on a different road, married , children etc. Strangely it wasn't becoming a JW that did it either, it sort of just died within me. But it gave me an empathy for those who are gay because of that.
In the past I have had dealings with and helped local JWs who have wanted to leave, for some reason I attract them.
I read that you say you were a Min Servant and pioneer, and you were gay from 15 onwards. (Strange when I read or hear of a JW brother being gay they usually have been a pioneer and/or a MS.)
A couple years ago I had two JW brothers call on me, which took me by surprise. They were in there late 20's, from a local congregation, I knew the families. They were both pioneers, one a MS, (see I told you).
They came to me for support as they were going to reveal they were gay, and disassociating. They had been "gay lovers" since they were 16/17 their "partnership" as pioneers, had been encouraged by their familes, who knew nothing. Over the years they even got a place to live together, telling everyone that it make it easier for them to pioneer from a single base.
But now they had decided that they could no longer keep the pretense up, even if it meant losing their families. The reason they came to me was that they needed someone just to talk to about their life and how they have led this double life and the strain it was causing. Anyway they eventually DA'd and moved away, had a letter about a year later saying they were doing ok.
I'm telling you this so as not tothink you are the only one it has happened to. So many ex-JWs seem to think, whether they are gay or not, thatthey are the only ones its happened to. Then they find a forum like this and discover many other have had the same experience, they are not alone, not without support.
You come here on this forum anytime you need support , we will not condemn you for who you are. You can shout, rage, rant, cry get it out of your system, or just generally chat.
!'m glad that you are making something of your life, despite the hurt you feel because of the JWs and the shunning by your family. Nothing upsets them more than seeing someone who left being happy. Stick with it lad.