You are not alone, and you are not judged by the people here. You are valuable as a person and count in many ways. This time of year is always very hard to deal with for those who are not feeling so merry. Not knowing your situation, I am guessing that you have been rejected by family, or a spouse. I hope this is not the case but understand that if it is, or any other concern... you have much sympathy from this board, and myself.
Hope these words help in some way, and if need be please post yourself......that is therapy in and of itself.