hi lem! i hope you stick around on this site, and read some of the posters who could really teach you a thing or two, in all honesty.
My point is that these are the actions of imperfect people.
but, i think this might be systemic to some problems you have with your relationship with the world and other people in it. in other words, it might be the root of a very wrong thought. i keep forgetting that it's not self-evident that people are perfect, in all the horrid tragedy and everescent beauty. perfect, lem, perfect.
if you believe you are a special creation of your God, then you have to stop seeing his creation as imperfect, and start loving yourself and loving others, for truly who they are, and not what club they belong to.
wonderless material? or material wonder? if you choose the latter and not the former, then it's time you stood up and represented better. ... "from the highest mountain, for all souls to see it..."
have a good day lem.
peace, love, oneness, unity,
tetra