Going GG,
I know, as most of us do, the relief you feel once you no longer have the fear of the elders. They act and for believers they are, the final word to your salvation. When I look back, the real fear was of being caught at something and losing the approval of the only friends you were allowed to have. To be honest, your story would scare the heebee jeebees out of most witness', but the real truth has set us free.