Hi again jabberwalkie.
I agree w/Perry and Kate. I was at the point of suicide and sought help w/professionals. Don't minimize your emotional state. You already are not feeling good which is depressing in itself. Then add to that the inhumane treatment from family and the elders who are definitely in the dark when it comes to emotional and physical problems.
We all hope to read more postings by you and get to know you better. Also, every individual here at the Forum has something unique to offer. Take care of yourself.