Thank you, all, for your advice. It's so helpful to hear from people who have been there.
inbyathread, thanks for the scriptural input--I do realize that it's unscriptural and, as a matter of fact, completely ridiculous to keep all those records, which is one of the reasons I stopped in the first place.
Darth He-Who-Shall-Not-Be-Named, thanks for the sympathy--much appreciated. Funny story--back before there was the internet, and while I was still an active Witness, I did some informal witnessing on a bulletin board--remember those? local dialup number you'd call with your modem? The elders didn't take kindly to that. They weren't panicked, though, like they would be now.
Angelica, welcome to the board. I think all of us here are either suffering, used to suffer, or will suffer in the future because of the Society. I am trying to avoid having my kids grow up to be Witnesses and suffering the same fate you do. It'll be so much easier to get them out while they're still young.
uninformed, thanks for the input. I am pretty close to the 6-month mark. I too find it distasteful and dishonest to turn in fake reports, which is why I hadn't done it yet. I would do it, though, if it would ease the fade. There are compromises I'm willing to make. As far as training the kids, I'm not in a place right now where I can offer spiritual guidance. My thinking currently runs in the agnostic line--I'm still on the rebound, mentally, and I am not sure if I am agnostic right now because I'm reacting to the Society or because it actually makes sense.
blondie, thanks so much for the warning about my wife. I can't get too specific yet, but to put it simply--that woman doesn't need any badgering right now. She takes care of several kids, some of which have health or behavioral problems, and she has her hands full. She's also trying very sincerely to still be a good Witness, which is something I find admirable and respectable, even if it's misguided. Those emotions are what cause me to still go to meetings with her even though I'd rather spend the evening vomiting.