Yesterday, I was having a horrible day....(some of you may know)
Well I was given the 2 hour long conversation on "How I am a Evil Unacceptable person". As in my last thread, I stated that my Sister went threw my house and found pictures of my children in their Halloween costumes. I didn't deny the fact I did that. Not that I could, but I got to my point were I just came out in the open and honestly said I celebrated Halloween with my children.
Well my sister went off on how Halloween deals with spirits and Satan. Then knowing she is getting married I explained to her that all wedding ritual involved pagan and spirituality. using the examples of the rings and veil etc... Then she had the audacity to tell me not to get all technical. WTF???? So I can't be right and tell her she is in the wrong with the planning of her wedding and how Halloween is no different with the details of spirits? I am going crazy....
Well it went on and on. I bluntly told her I don't believe in the Faithful and discrete slave. I also said everyone on Brooklyn is corrupt. I just didn't care I let it all out. I am not going to hide anymore.
Then she said I was a Horrible Mother. My heart sank. That has never been said to me ever. Everything I do in my life since the moment my daughter was born was for my children. I try to be the best Mom I can be. I was never shown on how to be a Mom. I don't know what I am doing half the time. However, my kids are well behaved, smart, funny and always laughing. To me it seems like I was doing a good job(so I thought). Sure, I always question myself on what I am doing. When I was called a bad mother it really hit me hard. The was just the worst thing anyone has ever said to me, and it came from my very own sister and Mother.
I just hope my children know that I am doing the best I can. Sorry I needed to vent.