My name is Joe. I've been a lurker for a while and just registered today. I've been disfellowshipped for about six months now, and I'm finally coming to grips with the doubts that I've had for so long. I don't even know where to begin to talk about how hard the past six months have been. I've lost everything. My family that was my world. My friends. My "purpose" in this world. In six months I've learned more about how the world operates than in my previous 21 years in "the bubble" that was my existence. My family thinks it's reason enough that I should come running back to the safe haven that is the Organization...."Can't I see how horrible it is "out there'"?, they say. But I know that's how it's designed. To be so niave to how the world operates you get chewed up and spit out and come stumbling back. I refuse. Yes I've learned the awful truth about some people in this world, but I've also seen the good, and I'm determined to pursue my own course....lol but I digress. And there's so much more as I'm sure all of you are well aware. Anyway I'm here for support. Considering the kind of person I am, this is taking alot for me to ask, but I'm honestly at a point where I need something. Just someone to talk to while I'm going through all of this, and I'm hoping to find it here. Life is not easy when you lose all of your significant, meaningful relationships, and I really don't want this bad experience to get the best of me. I want to finally know who I am, so I can confidently say I'm no longer a man divided.
Thanks for listening,