yes - come on this board too often
Do you struggle with some level of OCD?
Is there anything that you MUST do, not for any particular reason other than that's how you WANT them? Is it a non-negotiable for you?
Well I used to say having an absolutely neat and clean house. But then my wife and I had children. That took care of that OCD (although I do still stress out if there's a bunch of toys/clothes/junk scattered around).
My overriding OCD though is washing my hands. I do it 6 or 7 times a day. I know why, but that doesn't help any. Still, at least I have clean hands.
I compulsively buy cleaning products, ranging for shampoo, body wash. etc. Often I don't use but a select few, but I have my shelves and closets full of them and can't stop buying. I have trouble throwing away things. I have shoes from 20-25 years ago (I have the origianl "earth shoes" ) and no matter how unlikely I am to ever wear aything again, I can't throw it away (or give it away). On the rare occ I do throw somehting away, it always turns out that it comes back in style or I could have finally used it.
I have intrusive thoughts regarding the things elders, parents, and other jws have said to me. It makes life miserable.
I have been in therapy for some time, but this is very hard to cure, OCD.