Welcome Joyal... I'm so pleased you introduced yourself and came out of lurking. Especially now when you are at this crossroads in your life.
I remember when I first started reading here and reading CoC.... It was like my whole belief system came crashing down around me. I was so devestated. It was all I knew my whole life. And like you I couldn't think of anything else. I kept running the most amazing and outrageous stories through my head. I had nightmares about them. I just couldn't get away from it.
But I learnt to be patient and kind to myself. Instead of forcing myself into a whole new range of beliefs I decided to take things slow and just let myself figure things out along the way. You see there is no rush here. No stress. You have so much time on your hands to really work out exactly who you are. I bet you will be surprised. Without the WTBTS dictating what you like and don't like.
If you want to try your hand at something new TRY IT. If you don't like it - no problem. At least you are working out your interests.
If you want to visit other churches then do it. You may very well be surprised at how different they are to what we as JW's believed them to be. Just because you visit a church doesn't mean you have to convert either. Look at it as a curiosity thing.
This world has so much to offer you. Embrace it all. Learn, absorb, enjoy.
Keep posting. I have found that when I feel most confused, lost, hurting, shunned, happy, excited or just plain silly - that this online community is so diverse and there will ALWAYS be someone here to share your feelings with you. AND IT WILL HELP.
Hang in there darlin.