Some members of my family and I are currently attending meetings here and there but we no longer believe this is the truth (we are faders). I found out some things that were truly disturbing about this religion, I didn't want to believe it, so I researched some more to try to disprove it, but it turned out to be true, then there were other things that I found, finally at the point we are now, it's like finding your true self again, it's like living your life for the first time, when all the fears are lifted and you no longer believe that the Great Tribulation is coming, or the Armaggedon, that this life is the one you need to be living and making the most of, it's like having a heavy weight lifted off your back, the joy and peace is truly amazing, for the first time in years I feel truly happy, there is so much to look forward to, so much to experience, that I held back from because of the negative ideas the WTS paints about this world.
Coming back to Jehovah? If you are talking about God the Creator, I never left him, my family and I still believe in God, we just don't believe in Religion any Religion, we are pretty much like Deists. I've researched who the God called Jehovah was in ancient times, it's something you should research, reality is quite different than the illusion we lived as JW's, I've researched the Bible, I't also something you should research, who wrote it? where did the israelites get their ideas from? Who wrote the New Testament? reality here is also quite different than what we were taught to believe.
Going back to where we were before in this religion? Would you go back to the religion you left before you became a JW assuming you belonged to another? No, I think there is no possible way, once you have proven to yourself what the truth about the JW's is, there just isn't any way you can go back and unlearn it all. I suggest that if you are happy and feel fulfilled there, then stay. But if you feel the heavy load, the lack of love, the guilty feeling when leaving the assemblies, and meetings because you know you can't do more, all this is an indication that something is wrong, then I would tell you to research the religion you are following because it will have a big impact on the rest of your life and your kids lives if you have any.
I don't hold any grudges against any of the brothers at the hall, they are wonderful people, misguided, but they aren't to blame. My beef is with the leadership, for exerting so much control over others even when it has meant the loss of precious lives, children and adults with incredible god given talent that will never develop it because they are told to put the WTS first, people living close to poverty level because they were told the end was just around the corner so don't get an education, don't get a better paying job, don't live you life, instead live the life that is prescribed by the Society.
Thankfully my children will be free to reach their goals, and use their true god given talents, to be who they want to be, as long as they don't hurt anyone in the process, and actually contribute to humanity, to this earth, to helping people reach their goals and to make this a better place for everyone. I don't think this life is all there is, I really believe we go on after death, and I believe we will be with our loved in another realm after we die. So you see, we have left the beliefs but we are happy regardless, we have hope, we have faith, we have love, and we have FREEDOM!
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