*hugs* Brian
i wrote that exact letter (even the part about mum) to my father when I was 14 years old, I felt miserable about it because for 12 years we had no relationship. But I believed on the surface it was his choice. He never wrote me letters though, that made me sad and cemented the issue in my mind, he didnt care about me.
Recently I found out he did write me letters, regularly, but my Mother burned them, she said she thought it would just hurt my feelings so she never told me. If only I had those letters perhaps things would've been different. I am so angry at my mother.
My father is now a violent alcoholic with paranoid psychosis, I cant allow him into my life still, but I love him and realise he cant help his condition. Sometimes I feel guilty as though my letter and actions contributed to his current condition.
The witnesses are bad, it is a bad religion, I dont care what any conservative person may say. It should be abolished.