Welcome back Brother Mike,
Sorry to hear about your losses, your father and the change with your friend. You have had many big changes in your life which would affect anyone of us going through it. Of course, this does not mean it is time to give up but to keep moving through all obstacles! We're here for support and answers needed. What issue sparked your research? If you don't mind being asked. Continue seeking and researching. There is much to learn out there. Remember, the truth shall set you free.
take care now!