As I was trying to deal with my child's sexual abuse, my unfair dfíng for speaking out about it, and not getting any privelages back for months after reinstatement my husband was busy on the internet, looking up any information he could about the WTS.
In some sick way I guess I still felt the WTS was God's organization and that what had happened to my family was just unfortunate and due to some poor leadership. But the more I read and thought about things the more I couldn't deny the WTS's trickiness and even corruption.
My husband initially started getting me to look at the internet, showing me the 'silent lambs' site and also information about the Pangello's situation. I was horrified to hear how many other JWs had experienced the same suffering as my family had. As I read more and looked outside the information controlling organization, I started to feel validated in distrusting and even disliking the WTS. It was like opening my eyes and mind to the horrible truth about something I trusted 100%.
Now things started to make some sense to me and I didn't feel like I was evil, unspiritual or faithless for questioning the WTS's way of dealing with things such as sexual abuse, and for disapproving of how they handled things.
So by the time my husband told me about the UN scandal I was ready to accept the WTS being corrupt and hypocritical. It was the proverbial 'straw that broke the camel's back'. And I left without any guilt or doubt. What also confirmed their dishonesty was, no elder ever talked about being UN NGO yet when asked why the WTS was involved with the UN..................they had a pathetic library card excuse ready!
So I guess you could say finding out about the UN scandal sealed my fate in leaving without regret! But the WTS has hurt many with their lies and deception. The UN scandal was just 1 thing about the WTS that made me very angry.
Cheers, Bliss