I thought the same thing...who would want me? I'm scared of being alone. My family is JW, they will reject me or blame it on leaving the Borg.
I left a man who did not respect me and hurt me sexually/physically/mentally. I am not alone now, I found a wonderful man, who treats me with respect, listens to me, does not abuse me. Imagined if I had stayed in the abusive relationship? It wasn't easy at first (when i left). But it passed... and now I am happy.
You are scared and this perfectly normal. I know you have love for him, but truth is he doesn't know how to love.
Eventually it will end, and if you stay much longer it will end really bad. This is the truth. You need to be honest with yourself, really honest. I can tell you to leave along with 500 others. Ultimately no one can make you leave...ultimately it is up to you to wake up.
let me suggest a good book for you. http://www.amazon.com/Women-Who-Love-Too-Much/dp/0671733419
Just like leaving any situation where mind control has been used, you must educate yourself/arm yourself. Look for places to live, look at pricing, schooling for your children. Set up the dream in your mind. Read a lot of self help books. You will be unstoppable once you muster the courage to live your life and allow your children to see a happy mom.