Posts by macys

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I miss my family so much. I thought I was over it but I have breakdowns every few months thinking about my family

by macys in

as most of you know i have been shunned by my family for 2 years because of a photo posted on facebook of me kissing another girl at a party.

the matter was not dealt with fairly but it is over now and i am 100% certain that jdub org is a cult.

but i miss my family so much.

macys

Wow! Thank you all for your kindness and replies. I am just here to drop in after a hiatus from this site since I feel like I have so many friends here who are going through the same thing as me. I have so many positive things going on in my life now that I need to eventually move on from this cult. For now I am doing what I have to do so my parents will be able to be grandparents and see their grandchilndren.

So I have finally begun the reinstatement process. I met with thke elders in a completely new hall who do not know anything about my situation yet. I got to tell them my side of the story first before they get the letter from where my cards are still located. I was apologetic and humble and told them I am not living in sin. That of course is open to interpretation just like the bible and the WTBTS likes to mince words and go against 1 Cor 4:6.

I will basically need to go through the whole process of meetings, bible study (aka. brain washing through WT books) and other bullshit to be acceptable to Jehovah. I attendded my first meeting last month. It was hell to hear the bullshit now. The stares I get from people who already know I am Dfed is like I have the plague or something. One lady who I dare not call a sister, camme up to me and then stopped midway to say, "Oh I am sorry. I am not supposed to talk to you." I just smiled like fuck you bitch. Anyways this is really going to be hard to pull off. After my reinstatement I am going to fade away. I am also going to document everything so I will be able to build a case against this cult and take them to court. My boyfriend is uber wealthy and is going to pay for the case himself. Even if we lose it will be good that other people get to see the inner workings of this cult. That is about it for now. And if I can not get to all of your private messages right away I say thank you anyways!

I will keep you updated as my reinstatement moves along. The one elder said to me it could take up to two years before I am in "good standing" with this cult. I cringed but smiled to his face. I told him I am happy to be back home. LOL

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I miss my family so much. I thought I was over it but I have breakdowns every few months thinking about my family

by macys in

as most of you know i have been shunned by my family for 2 years because of a photo posted on facebook of me kissing another girl at a party.

the matter was not dealt with fairly but it is over now and i am 100% certain that jdub org is a cult.

but i miss my family so much.

macys

As most of you know I have been shunned by my family for 2 years because of a photo posted on facebook of me kissing another girl at a party. The matter was not dealt with fairly but it is over now and I am 100% certain that JDub org is a cult.

But I miss my family so much. I pretend to not think about them. I even say to myself I do not need them or love them anymore because they shunned me. But that is not true because I do love them. I was very close to my family and we had a good family before we converted to the JDub cult.

I am thinking, I am considering, going back just so I can be reinstated so I can have my family back. Once I am back then I will fade away, just so I can show my family how far I have come on my own. I would like to have children when I am finished with school and I can not imagine my grand kids asking why they can not see their own grandmother. I can not allow that to happen. So I am planning now to go back and get reinstated so my grand kids can know their grandparents.

Am I doing the right thing or is this the medication speaking?

Please help me. Nobody can understand me better than you guys here. I am so happy to be free of this cult yet so sad not to have a normal family life.

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Phew! Sick with the worst flu like virus in years and nothing I can do about it.

by macys in

last week i came home from school early not feeling well.

by 5 o'clock i was shaking, had a high fever, body aches all over, headache, nausea, dizziness, muscle cramps everything you can think of.

i thought i was lucky because everyone in my school is sick and i seemed to not get it for weeks.

macys

Thanks guys for the tips! Yeah I am miserable. My boyfriend said if he injects me with his semen that it will be an immune booster. I am thinking about it. Anyone hear of this before?

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Phew! Sick with the worst flu like virus in years and nothing I can do about it.

by macys in

last week i came home from school early not feeling well.

by 5 o'clock i was shaking, had a high fever, body aches all over, headache, nausea, dizziness, muscle cramps everything you can think of.

i thought i was lucky because everyone in my school is sick and i seemed to not get it for weeks.

macys

Thanks. I an not a doctor person so unless I am dying I wont go but this one has caught me by surprise cause I have not been sick in years. Literally not since 2009. Not a flu not a cold not even a sniffle. And then wham! This!

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Phew! Sick with the worst flu like virus in years and nothing I can do about it.

by macys in

last week i came home from school early not feeling well.

by 5 o'clock i was shaking, had a high fever, body aches all over, headache, nausea, dizziness, muscle cramps everything you can think of.

i thought i was lucky because everyone in my school is sick and i seemed to not get it for weeks.

macys

Last week I came home from school early not feeling well. By 5 o'clock I was shaking, had a high fever, body aches all over, headache, nausea, dizziness, muscle cramps everything you can think of. I thought I was lucky because everyone in my school is sick and I seemed to not get it for weeks.

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Taking bets on how long this cult will last and what will happen to it

by macys in

i wanna make a poll here.

how many years do you think the jdub cult will exist as is and what will happen to it?.

i say the growth stops this year and starts to decline.

macys

I am a student on a tight budget so right now $5 is all I got!

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If its Halloween, it must be it must be saw

by suavojr in

this is the list of my favorite terror movies that i used to watch as kid and still was able to be a good little jdub and son of the cobe.

looking back, the wt made me more curious to watch these movies.

some great memories!

macys

The Haunting

The Exorcist

The Shining

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Taking bets on how long this cult will last and what will happen to it

by macys in

i wanna make a poll here.

how many years do you think the jdub cult will exist as is and what will happen to it?.

i say the growth stops this year and starts to decline.

macys

I know what you are saying and you are right about the churn but you are forgetting one big thing. You are forgetting that if this cult is supposedly being blessed by Jehovah then there should be growth. A lot of growth, especially if we are living in the last days LOL and this will help them to wake up and leave even more. Once that begins there will be no stopping it. .

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Taking bets on how long this cult will last and what will happen to it

by macys in

i wanna make a poll here.

how many years do you think the jdub cult will exist as is and what will happen to it?.

i say the growth stops this year and starts to decline.

macys

I wanna make a poll here. How many years do you think the JDub cult will exist as is and what will happen to it?

I say the growth stops this year and starts to decline. I give it 10 years before the numbers are cut in half, that means 4 million publishers and in 15 years there will not be anymore JDub org. Just a shell of die hards and others from 3rd world countries. But once they get internet access even that growth will end.

I visit other apostate sites during the day when I am bored and I see more and more members joining. The numbers of X-JDubs are growing exponentially. The org is bleeding and getting old. I remember when I was still going to my meeting 90% were old people all in their 70's and 80;s. No new blood. When they die, that is it!

Knowledge is power!

XOXO

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Something interesting!

by John Aquila in

i was invited to a small get-together by a long time friend.

we both served as elders for years.

he is in his late 70s.

macys

This is so cool! I am getting goosies!