I'm sorry to read you're in this predicament NYsweet16. If there are people on this planet who can help with advice, it would certainly be some of the ladies on this forum like OrphanCrow who can identify with your situation. The ladies here are imcredibly smart, compassionate and I believe to be genuine.
Might I suggest you PM them should you feel a little intimidated. That way your conversation can be kept private and you would feel more secure.
I am rooting for you as I'm sure most of us are. Be strong, stay calm and have faith in yourself!