@Chickenlips: Play the long game here. That is, keep a sense of perspective. It's hard now, in the short term, because your entire life may have been built around the religion. Short term pain is the pressure they apply to make you "sorry" so that you return. However, as you move on with your life, it gets easier, the feeling of exile fades. And then, you are free in the long term. You can build things that matter to you. You can have long term satisfaction, and you aren't wasting your life and time on the WT any longer.
Also, for those family that are shunning you - they have a choice. It's their choice. Don't let them tell you that it's your fault they can't talk to you (another manipulation). It's all them - they have agency.