Stumble a huge welcome to you, your story
has a common thread. You are not alone for
sure ... hundreds of thousands of jw's leave
WT because of failed doctrine, stumbling over the way
they are treated, blood issue and the horrid DFing
and shunning!
You feel so alone ...because that is the way the WT
has designed their 'punishment'.
Try to be very kind and understanding to your Mom.
She does not want to lose you. Hang around and keep
posting ....this site, JWfacts, Jwstruggle, JW survey will
all help you to get a grasp on what is really going on.
Best wishes to you
clarity