JUST WANT TO SAY THANKS AGAIN FOR THE WELCOMES...
I must say, I have been doing alot of thinking about Jehovah and the JW organization and analysing alot of things which I haven´t really done before until now. Well actually it has always been at the back of my mind and I used to think about my life when I was a witness and how I miss my friends etc.
Now I see it differently...I think that before I considered it to be the closest religion to the truth. Now definitely not !
The more I read and think about, the further away from truth it is.
In turn, I have been able to stand up for what I truly feel...I told in my previous post that I hid the fact I was inactive from my family (who live a fair distance away which helps) who are witnesses and also my non-witness family still think I am, (I think).
It is just a first step for me to be truthful...the other day, I received a text from my witness cousin who asked if I had been to the DC? I texted back and said that I didn´t go and by the way, I don´t go to the meetings here because of the pressure and was making me anxious and unhappy. I told her that the kids are happy because mom and dad are happier and more relaxed.
I should of told her that I haven´t been going for 10 years or so...but I think I will elaborate more when I see her face to face so that I can explain better. Maybe I can help to free her shackles too.
I haven´t completely left it ... we tend to go to the memorial every year. The local congregation here know we are inactive witnesses from England and they are friendly. An elder and his wife occasionally come to see us. They don´t put any pressure on us. Although they came all the way from their house to ours just to tell us that CO was visiting and invited us to his talk. We didn´t go..the fact it´s in another language doesn´t help to enjoy it.
I´m not up to date on alot of what goes on in the organization now. I just remember when I was in it. I didn´t have children when I was active. I cannot see that I would ever become active again and teach it to my children but I also don´t think I can hate it. I think that there are alot of well meaning witnesses in the organization who are just cloned and closed minded. Some live and breathe it but it´s not a healthy lifestyle.
Anyway, I am just writing the jumbled words in my head and hope it all makes some sense.