Georgia,
We've all got to blow off a little steam occasionally & being emotional is a healthy state to be in, especially towards elders!
FIN, I think your mental state is decidedly fragile, & you seem to be a controlling, manipulative elder/elder's wife. Am I correct? We come to this site for understanding & to share experiences with other ex-dubs who have the same sort of feelings - this is not the place to berate strangers for confessions that come from their hearts. We are all vulnerable enough.