Hello Lostandfound.
You won't know me either, but I can empathise to some extent as a dear friend of mine was diagnosed with a brain tumour earlier this year. He's had a gamma knife operation and we're still waiting to see if this has been successful. It's affected his hearing and eyesight and we don't know how that's going to go...
Fortunately my friend is not involved with JW land so does not have that side to deal with, but it must have been horrible for you to have something like this compounded by your 'so called friends' not coming to visit. It really does show doesn't it?
I thought your story about your swearing at your granddaughter was funny :)
I wish you all the very best!
Petraglyph