doubts i had before awakening:
"1975 fiasco was a mistake of the brothers not the org", always bugged me to blame poor brothers, who before 75 would have been commended as spirtually strong...
"civil service is wrong" (before 96) never understood the reasoning
"birthdays, toasting is wrong, marriage rings, honeymoon ok" were is the consistency ?
"animals will live in peace" just watching my own pets prooved otherwise, they were created to kill and hunt...
"beards" where in the bible does it indicate anything about wearing beards is wrong ?
"higher education" always bugged me, was very happy, when a more reasonable approach came in early 90`s (unfortunately we are back, even worse than before 90)
later on as an elder, therefore according to the org being also a judge reminded me of Jesus warning, not to judge...could not reconcile this
However, here is my point, despite these doubts, despite even acknowledging the fallibility of the GB, it still was Gods org for me.
Only the tighter grip and adding of rules like the famous KM 09/07, the "Gods love"-book, and other rules and regulations made me look somewhere else for information, and here I am....