Posts by ilovelamp120

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Want to Introduce myself....Hi everyone.

by ilovelamp120 in

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friends

hi all, i've been reading here for awhile and made a few posts before realizing i should probably introduce myself.

it's so refreshing to read ppl's thoughts on these topics, which run deeply personal, and i've never been able to express myself freely, so thanks for such a great forum.. i was born and raised a dub, by my "spiritually single" mother (dad was an unbeliever..still is) me and my 3 other siblings all fell away before getting baptised, other than my older sis, who was df'd at 16. unfortunatley in my early 20's a sister "took an interest in me and we had a bible study for 2 years before getting baptized at 24.

(what a regret) since then i floundered, flopped, got df'd a year later for dum, dum, dum..."fornication and then reinstated 9 months later.

ilovelamp120

I have nothing to hide. And hold my head up high with intergrity. Feel free to PM me mother!!! And we can take this outside!!!!

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Want to Introduce myself....Hi everyone.

by ilovelamp120 in

jw
friends

hi all, i've been reading here for awhile and made a few posts before realizing i should probably introduce myself.

it's so refreshing to read ppl's thoughts on these topics, which run deeply personal, and i've never been able to express myself freely, so thanks for such a great forum.. i was born and raised a dub, by my "spiritually single" mother (dad was an unbeliever..still is) me and my 3 other siblings all fell away before getting baptised, other than my older sis, who was df'd at 16. unfortunatley in my early 20's a sister "took an interest in me and we had a bible study for 2 years before getting baptized at 24.

(what a regret) since then i floundered, flopped, got df'd a year later for dum, dum, dum..."fornication and then reinstated 9 months later.

ilovelamp120

Hi all, I've been reading here for awhile and made a few posts before realizing I should probably introduce myself.

It's so refreshing to read ppl's thoughts on these topics, which run deeply personal, and I've never been able to express myself freely, so thanks for such a great forum.

I was born and raised a Dub, by my "spiritually single" mother (Dad was an unbeliever..still is) me and my 3 other siblings all fell away before getting baptised, other than my older sis, who was Df'd at 16. Unfortunatley in my early 20's a sister "took an interest in me and we had a bible study for 2 years before getting baptized at 24. (what a regret) Since then I floundered, flopped, got Df'd a year later for dum, dum, dum..."fornication and then reinstated 9 months later.

I'm now 30 and have been "luke warm" since my re-entry into the cult. Brothers and sisters just shake their heads and label me a "lost sheep", or "spiritually weak", or even more recently "wolf in sheeps clothing". (hypocrates), only coz I dont warm a seat at the kingdom Hall twice a week. Needless to say I have lived with the guilt for 30 years. That is until a good friend and my sister knocked some sense into my head. For the first time in my life I dont have that incessant rain cloud of GUILT hovering over my head, and feel soooooooo liberated...and a bit lost, which is why I really appreciate this forum.

I do however find it VERY difficult now spending time with my FANATIC over zealouse mother. I want to scream and shake her, but I know she would/will never see the "truth" for what it really is, and thats so sad. Even I fought it with my sister for almost a year, caling her an apostate, and making accusations towards my friend. We are very deeply indoctrinated. I feel so sorry for witnesses now, but who's really to blame???

There really is no one...The Borg has gotten so big, that everyone is such a part of the problem, and that is so frustrating to me. Does anyone think that eventually the house of cards will collapse? Or will it just keep growing and growing.

Angry....Thanks all, I look fwd to being a part of this recovery community, and listening to all your insightful posts

Ilovelamp120

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Are looks important to you?

by LouBelle in

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friends

be honest about it.

many people put a lot of emphasis on the way they look and put a lot of effort into maintaing their look.

the current younger generation is obsessed by it.

ilovelamp120

I think looks are important, but more than the initial attraction, I think chemistry has more to do with it. Right down to our baser instincts, like how we smell to one another, and react to each other. I've heard recently that when someone is attracted to you, or vice versa, your pupils will dilate (isn't that so cool) it so much a part of our instincts, that alot of it cant merely be based on the current "ideal" of beauty.

Although I must admit I'm very influenced by that. BTW!!! (I haven't learned how to quote ppl yet but...)

Doofdaddy...."EG curves in the right places. I love hips, full lips and a kissable neck. Yumm"

Check, check, check.....just incase you were wondering

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The Tobacco Bombshell...

by Snoozy in

back in the 70's jw smokers where given 6 to 12 months to quit... i remember one witness in particular that had come up to missouri from arkansas to try and make a living for him and his wife and daughter.

(all jw"s).

well they had previously tried to earn a living in arkansas by picking cotton and doing other farm labors.

ilovelamp120

Thanks leavingwt, for that link. I've been getting into heated debates over recycling, for awhile now, but have lacked some useful info. I'm a flight attendant and every country we fly to we recycle alot of the waste on board. However, it's a useless endeavor, because it seems recycling is (for the most part) a North American enterprise. Most countries we fly to take our well sorted garbage and dispose of it in large gargage bins.

Now I've got some new amo!!!!

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Can DF get "No Blood" card?

by cameo-d in

or are you required to be in "good standing" to get a new blood card?.

are they required to be updated every year to be legally valid?.

ilovelamp120

I was DF'd in 2003 and thats the first thing they asked me for in my judicial meeting (to turn in my blood card to them) after they made their "judgement" of me. When I was re-instated 9 months later I asked for it back. I have yet to DA myself, but when I do and they ask me for my blood card I'll have to let them know I tore it up into tiny pieces months ago. I don't think they'll mind.

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Kingdom Hall Mortgages....Interesting Info

by gringojj in

hey guys its been a long time since i have posted but there was something i wanted to share that i had found and get peoples opinion.. in massachusetts south worcester county you can search real estate transactions from the past 40 years on a website called www.masslandrecords.com.. i was checking the history on the property at 700 worcester st southbridge , mass in worcester county which is the location of the kingdom hall.. it looks like from the records that the hall was first mortgaged back in the 60's by the wbts and then again in the early 80's by the wbts but then in the later 80's by mechanics bank which became bank boston.

that all makes sense.. the curious part is that in the 90's it looks like they expanded the property with the owners of the property being the southbridge kingdom hall corp but the mortgage of 60,000 was held by a member of the congregation.

i did a little more digging and it looks like this wealthy congregation member actually did a few mortgages over the years for other cong members for thier own houses.. has anyone ever heard of a cong member mortgaging a kingdom hall or other members?.

ilovelamp120

I too, don't believe any one person is getting rich off this organization, but I'm sure there are millions of dollars outside of assets. Through real estate deals alone. Not to mention that no wages are paid out to the thousands of bros and sisters that keep the org running.