Willl----------damn that hurt!!
I try my best, I just wanted to understand why I was feeling this way. I won't hold too tight, I know how that feels!
Posts by Jesika
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22Please help me understand why....................
by Jesika inbefore i pose the ?
i want to give some history of the situation.. last yr..................... i was engaged to a guy and he went back to doing speed and stealing from me and my son.
he abandoned us in the townhome cause of people who had set up camp in the house waiting for his return ( he owed them $).
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Please help me understand why....................
by Jesika inbefore i pose the ?
i want to give some history of the situation.. last yr..................... i was engaged to a guy and he went back to doing speed and stealing from me and my son.
he abandoned us in the townhome cause of people who had set up camp in the house waiting for his return ( he owed them $).
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Steph----------Thank you for replying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And thank you for the advice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just got off the phone with TX and I am ok now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU TX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JES
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Please help me understand why....................
by Jesika inbefore i pose the ?
i want to give some history of the situation.. last yr..................... i was engaged to a guy and he went back to doing speed and stealing from me and my son.
he abandoned us in the townhome cause of people who had set up camp in the house waiting for his return ( he owed them $).
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TX--------- You and Nina have known me since I was 4. I am only saying this for others to know.
I thank you for your comments, I guess I am a little afraid since things are going SOOOOOOOOOOO well with us. Alex doesn't want children (fine with me I don't want anymore), but he loves my son!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! His TWIN sister told me I am the FIRST woman he has dated(much less been serious with)-that has a child. You are right!!!!!!!!!!! I am not used to things being good, especially for as long as they have been. For a yr to pass and no drama????????? Never thought it would happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I guess you nailed it to the wall!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I think I now know what my prob is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!
Once again, you have helped me see things from outside "the box"!!!!!!!!!!!
I would still love for others to put their opinions here in case I may have missed a possibility.
Love,
Jes
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Pics From our Cruise
by Stephanus ingot my digicam back today - going through old photos today and realised i'd never posted the pics from our cruise to new caledonia last year!
isle of pines with ship in the distance.
cemetery for the original catholic missionaries to the island.
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Jesika
One of my dreams is to go on a cruise, thank you for sharing.
Hey Stephanus, could you please give me your input on my thread please.
Jes
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Please help me understand why....................
by Jesika inbefore i pose the ?
i want to give some history of the situation.. last yr..................... i was engaged to a guy and he went back to doing speed and stealing from me and my son.
he abandoned us in the townhome cause of people who had set up camp in the house waiting for his return ( he owed them $).
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Jesika
gypsy--------thank you for your suggestion, but I have been on my own since I was 15. I have not NEEDED a man, just would like to have one, and have spent alot of time on my own.
Granny, Thank you and I understand what you are saying. I guess I am just afraid of losing him, I have loved before and it has ended up hurting me.
Francois-------I have not told him how I feel for the very reason you stated. I would be VERY hurt if this didn't work out--especially if it was my fault (suffocating him). This is why I am asking for some input to make sure it is just me being over sensitive to my fear of losing him. He has been there for me in times I wasn't there for ME. Thank you for your input.
Jes
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Please help me understand why....................
by Jesika inbefore i pose the ?
i want to give some history of the situation.. last yr..................... i was engaged to a guy and he went back to doing speed and stealing from me and my son.
he abandoned us in the townhome cause of people who had set up camp in the house waiting for his return ( he owed them $).
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Before I pose the ? I want to give some history of the situation.
Last yr....................
I was engaged to a guy and he went back to doing speed and stealing from me and my son. He abandoned us in the townhome cause of people who had set up camp in the house waiting for his return ( he owed them $). I had returned to stripping and was also bartending to try and keep my head above water. During this time I met Alex (my bf now for about a yr). He was a customer of mine and I ended up liking him alot. He would come an see me while I was bartending and always tipped me well. We were exact opposites, I was the crazy dominatrix stripper, and bartender--him the computer job, quiet guy, no kids, never married. He was always there for me when I needed to talk, even when it was about my loser fiance. Anyways, well, while my fiance had abandoned us, my son was with his dad that weekend. I ended up sleeping with one of the ones there who seemed to help me escape. Eventually he hit me months later, and my friendship with Alex was denied. I threw his #'s away for fear this other guy would hurt him. I finallly left 3 months later, with no contact with Alex. He didn't know why we stopped talking and tried contacting me several times, which were kept from me.\
After leaving, my best friend Billy and I went to the same strip club Alex and I met at (his roommate was the bartender and was the main reason for him(Alex) going there). After I had a few (I was hiding from her the whole time we were there), I walked up to her crying and saying I was sorry and to tell Alex for me. She told me he would LOVE to hear from me, and gave me his cell # and some money to call him, I went to the ladies room and did so. I was expecting him to hang up on me or cuss me out, he didn't and we met up that night and he was SO glad to see me again. His roommate became a good friend of mine and she told me Alex hadn't gone out with anyone while I was gone. He only wanted me. This proved to be true by more than one person, of which don't know each other.
Being that I was a stripper, and that this was the place we met, I have been very passive when he is approached by another woman. I have witnessed him pointing me out from across the room when a woman has come up to talk to him, and this was before and after I was living with him. (This happening outside of the topless clubs)
OK MY ?----------------- I have noticed lately I am becoming extremely jealous of ANY women that gets close (family excluded). My blood pressure rises and I literally break a sweat at times. WHY NOW am I getting this way????????????????????? I haven't done anything stupid, but would like any imput as to why this is happening, he isn't this way and never has been. He has been supportive, understanding, and the best thing to happen to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He got me off drugs, and out of stripping. Why am I feeling like this?????????????????????? If I can pin point the problem I can fix it or control it, but I don't honestly know why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY am I feeling this way??????????????????????????????????
Any thoughts are welcome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jesika
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Girl dies for her beliefs
by terafera inhundreds pay tribute to jehovah teen who fought against blood.
transfusions.. by licia corbella, editor.
do not mourn me for i'm not dead.. i lay asleep upon this bed.
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Jesika
How sad another young person has to die.
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For those that've been out of the borg for 25+ yrs
by Jigrigger inif we were to go back to the borg, would we see any marked difference in the attitudes/environment in the organization?
would it appear more liberal or more strict than it was 20 or more years ago?
or would it appear that not much has changed?.
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Jesika
I have been out for 11yrs, but I don't wish to ever get close enough to want to know if there are any changes. They could NEVER change enough to make me EVER want to return. I have a son and I would never put him through such an environment!!!!!!!
Jes
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Young girl next to me is studying! - Hi Julie :)
by unclebruce inwow, i'm sitting here at the bega library and the young girl sitting next to me saw me posting to a jw board and i am helping her understand the layout of this board.
she has been 'studying' for 6 years and has a lot of questions.
the local bros keep calling to encourage her meeting attendence etc... please give the young lady a warm welcome and help her once/if she registers.. i have recomended randy watters 'freeminds' site too.. g'day julie!!
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Jesika
Welcome Judith,
Please get all the facts and examine from both sides, the JW's and the ex-JW's before you make a decision to contiune with the JW's.
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You same people are always here?
by breeze inwhat do all you people do?
i come to this site and you guys are always here..reassuring i suppose, but still .
are you doing this at work??
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Jesika
Well, I have been out of work for about 6 months, got a job a few wks ago and wasnt here much-- then was wrongly fired, so here I am again. I have alot of friends here and love coming in to see what everyone is up to, or if anyone needs me.
Jes