Welcome to the board Sarabi....I hope you will continue searching here.
This forum is full of people in the same situation or a similar one. In my case I was the searching husband. I was an MS and account servant for many years almost an elder. Due to the wealth of information I found here and thru the reading of CofC I found deceipt and debauchery with the JW's & WTBS. This tore my world to pieces. and I could no longer live a lie nor convey that lie to others. This resulted in resigning as an MS and eventually no longer attending meetings, service, etc..
My wife is still very much an active JW and my actions really affected her mentally to the point that the relationship was disintegrating beyond repair. My wife, like you, resented the fact that I came to this website. At first she thought it was apostate then it turned to jealosy from speaking to others but she eventually accepted it. I explained my reasons and concerns for having such doubts in the Society but she rejects these claims as most JW's do. They always say that the FDS have reasons for their changes and decisions they make in their doctrine since they are directed divinely.
We have come to terms in the area of religion for now. She continues with her religious endeavors and lets me be agnostic in my views, which I keep to myself most of the time especially around her JW family. I try to sneak a seed for thought to her once in awhile. I think basically you need to respect each others space. It isn't as though either of you are having an affair. Please be patient with each other as you both strive to be one together whether it's religiously or not.
I hope you both work thru this as my wife and I are trying to do. Beleive me, it gets easier every day.
Quirky1