I was pretty angry with mine for a while. I'd known all three of them since childhood. And they really did a bang up job with my JC hearing. Yes, singular. No multiple sessions or anything like that. The entire process from initial meeting to their decision took less than the time for a school and service meeting. I know this because we met in the basement of the hall when the other congregation was having their meeting, and start to finish I was done and outta there before the congregation upstairs was done.
I was told later, by my mother, who had heard herself through the never ending grape vine of information (my father is also an elder and was told by a JC member), that after I left they all cried. Well boo hoo for them. They didn't even want to get into anything other than the surface things, the action itself. I tried explaining my motivations and what state of mind I was in, and they just didn't want to hear it. A couple years later my grandfather died and I relucantly attended his memorial service. Two of them stayed on the complete opposite end of the hall from me, couldn't even look me in the eye. ESPECIALLY the main guy on the JC, which I personally find (now looking back) offensive because he was extremely close with my grandparents and my family. And I am the only grandson. He couldn't even muster a look in my direction. Another member of the JC came up to speak with my father, who I was standing right by, and he would glance over in my direction, and then say something to my father, almost like he was saying it to me through my father. My mother seemed to think they all felt guilty because they know they just did a wham bam thank you maam job on my JC issue. So I was bitter for a while.
But in all reality, they obviously saw something that I didn't at the time. Yeah, I had a lot of motivation that led me to committ fornication, well besides the obvious ;) At the time I saw that motivation as something different than it was. There was a big part of me that I was too afraid to acknowledge that abhorently hated being a JW. And my life is so much better now than it ever could've been inside the WTBS. I've grown exponentially since then and am actually truly happy now.
I now see them simply as people. We all respond to life in different ways. They respond to life by living it in a way I don't agree with, and in their position they were doing what they thought they had to, to preserve their own place in what they felt was the right organization and teachings to be a part of.
I am still angry in the sense of disrespect and lack of compassion they are supposed to have dedicated themselves to show to everyone. But we all know that is nothing but a farse.
So they are what they are, and I am what I am.
I am proud to say I've been DF'd for 7 years now.