I have been watching (I like that much better than lurking- sounds less sinister) for about a year now. Some of the moving and eye-opening things about this board for me are/were:
- Information about the history and doctrine of JWs
- Personal stories of hatred, anger, frustration, depression from former and present JWs (some of the feelings I could identify with, but in less poignent form)
- Knowing that there were elders out there who were as frustrated and confused as I was
I finally decided to post because I came to a point where I knew that I was no longer going to be an elder. I felt that even if the borg monitors this site and could track me down (a real fear), I was not an elder anymore, and more importantly, I didn't want to be. About 6 months ago I started having a real problem saying some of the things from the stage that I was expected to say. That feeling progressed until I felt uncomfortable even commenting on much of the material that I was expected to comment on.