Hurting- I'm so sorry you experienced this abuse in your family and this WT organization. You are not alone. Many here have experienced the same things. You are to be really commended for furthering your education in Psychology and learning critical thinking ability. It was that critical thinking ability helping you decipher being abused that helped your mind to clear up in order to exit the Witnesses. Good for you.
Please know that you are a good person and VERY worthy of good things happening to you in your life. It was the JW organization and WT Society's teachings and policies that made us have low self esteem - but it will get better in time the longer you are away from the emotional vampires dwelling within the JW cult. Keep researching and reinforcing your mind with positive vibes outside the WT organization. We are here for you as a support. Take care my friend and hang in there