Hey Good JW, I understand your feelings as I was a born-in JW from birth ( exited 14 years ago at age 44 ) . In my years after escaping from Jehovah's Witnesses I've come to the conclusion that at least for myself- that the meaning of life is living each and every day to the full with love and spreading good vibes enjoying living in the ' here and now ' .
What I mean by that is as JW's we were always conditioned in our minds to think " this life is temporary " - or - " this is not the real life, the real life will be living forever in paradise ". Which is absolute BS in my opinion. This life we are living IS the real life ! There most probably never will be a " forever " so we have to make the best of each and every day we live in this life- it's the only life we have !
So I've enjoyed pursuing interests like playing music, writing songs, hiking in the mountains, photography, other exciting things to do in life on the side while of course still running my business as a self employed business owner. We have to take life by the reins and grab it in a positive way caressing and cherishing each and every day . My view of life at the end of my life someday will be much like the Beatles final words on their final Abbey Road album - " And in the end the love you take, is equal to the love you make. " We will only get out of life - what we put back into it regards to relationships in love of others, love of ourselves, respecting others rights, while pursuing our life interests all the while taking an interest in others as well as always learning something new until the day we die.
I feel I'll never get to a point where " I know it all " - I don't believe that's possible. But we can stay engaged in learning and experiencing new things in life along this magnificent journey until the end. Kind of how I see things