Hi,
so sorry to learn of your current situation. It just goes to show that you never know what is going on in another poster's life. We all have disagreements on these boards and tend to forget what else the other poster is going through.
You seem to be dealing with a lot of shit right now and there is no shame in being tired of that. I can fully understand your feelings about the Witnesses, and the ignorance is bliss routine. Because ignorance is bliss. If I had the chance to re-live the situation I found myself in then I would have hoped never to learn of the other side, and the exposer of WT lies. I often think that. Wouldn't it be nice to just live for a new life, in the new system, everybody lives happily ever after? Well, we have reached the point of no return. If you go back, you will just feel more empty still.
I look around sometimes I wonder what I have to look forward to, and, like you, it is the hope of something better, something greater in life; this hope drives us and helps us get through life. You are not being punished for anything, you have just been the victim of real bad luck in life. It's easy for me to say that there are people in far worse situations but this doesn't help you right now; but moving away from your troubles at home is a good start, you owe it to yourself. This day will pass.
I hope everything works out for you