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megsmomma
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In Memorandum
by RichieRich init was the 14th of april last year that i had to sit my mother down and tell her i was an apostate.. i was closer to her than anyone else.
my father and mother are still married, but he let her raise me as a witness, and that meant it was me and mom.. me and mom in field service for 100 hours in july because she had to make her time as a regular pioneer.. me and mom fighting over what to bring for lunch to the district convention.. me and mom up late at night, when she would berate me, and then unload all her problems on to me.. me and mom and our 4 hour family studies, where we discuss 2 paragraphs of a random book, and then she would browbeat me until early in the morning.. somehow, through all that, i pretended to be a witness for years, just to appease her.
looking back, i don't know if i loved her, or if i was just afraid of her.
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In Memorandum
by RichieRich init was the 14th of april last year that i had to sit my mother down and tell her i was an apostate.. i was closer to her than anyone else.
my father and mother are still married, but he let her raise me as a witness, and that meant it was me and mom.. me and mom in field service for 100 hours in july because she had to make her time as a regular pioneer.. me and mom fighting over what to bring for lunch to the district convention.. me and mom up late at night, when she would berate me, and then unload all her problems on to me.. me and mom and our 4 hour family studies, where we discuss 2 paragraphs of a random book, and then she would browbeat me until early in the morning.. somehow, through all that, i pretended to be a witness for years, just to appease her.
looking back, i don't know if i loved her, or if i was just afraid of her.
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megsmomma
Wow....just wow. I feel like that with my mom...like evrything we had when I was a witness was fake anyways, and I am much happier without her (as a person) in my life. I long for a mom...not MY mom. And no one can be "your mom" except your mom...so it is a big loss. We are orphans....but getting over it and removing the tumor is a good idea....just easier said than done.
I am going to step on the cracks too.....(That statement....Oh....too much!!)
I actually got a door matt that was left over from the holiday season at Big Lots for 1.99. It says JOY on it...which is mymomsname. I never buy x-mas things that say "JOY"on them....they make me cringe....But wiping my feet on JOY makes me feel good.
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my four year old started preschool yesterday
by BlackSwan of Memphis inyep, she started preschool!
she was so, so excited.. we went out sunday and got her a new dress and tights (ya know the kind that are footless but have a little lace band) and a hat and sunglasses.. she loved the sunglasses and didn't want to leave the house without them.. here are a few pics:.
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megsmomma
Wow...she looks so cute and proud!! It has got to be so hard to send them off!!
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What was your Favorite/Dreadful job?
by whyamihere inwhen i think back, i loved being a cocktail waitress.. all i had to do is put on a short skirt prance around like i knew what i was doing and get paid for it.
tips were good too!.
dreadful job?
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megsmomma
Hey Brook...where did you cocktail waitress? I was one too at the Riverside Casino in Laughlin NV. It was OK...but the wemon were very catty and I had to work all the less desirable shifts.
I have also bartended during the day at a cool little bar. That was really fun while it lasted.....Great tips and lots of regulars. Plus, during the day you didn't have to deal with drunks.
Then the last job I had was at a 401k call center. That was the most fulfilling because I got to learn about retirement plans (which I had no idea about before due to never concidering it)and I was able to really help people.
Now I am a stay at home mom...the best job ever!!
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Jousting with windmills
by Bobhere inthe wt has no claim on me i don't think its purely altruistic ( i'm no saint) on my part to help other victims which i have over the years it's like i was part of a dsylectic family and i want to make it right.
a quest like that of don quotie " to right the unrightable wrong" i say it has no claim yet here i am posting on this site.
its like i want justice but can't find the enemy let alone pin him down and thrust him through with my sword.
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megsmomma
I think one of the main reasons I post here...and read the posts, is because it gives me hope to see all the new people, elders, CO's and DO's coming out of the org....and reading things that keep reasuring me that the society is a bunch of crap. (brainwashing is a process to remove from your head)
The ones I have tried to "help" are like you said..."happy in the prison"...so, I just like to vent here instead of making them all mad (although I still do when I feel like I can't keep my mouth shut at times)
My last attemp to "help" someone is my non-baptised little sister has a df'd roomate that does all kinds of "bad" things she has so much guilt over because she thinks the "truth' is the truth. I wish I could ease her mind....but she is super stubborn. I gave her a COC book and she hasn't read it. I guess my little sister confescated it. Oh well....I told her in 20 years when this system is still here, she can feel free to call me....and that I will always be here for her to talk to...even if she gets back in.
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How Did/Would You Propose? :)
by GetBusyLiving inso i'm going to propose to my girlfriend this weekend!
what do you ladies think would be totally romantic?
how did you dudes propose?
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How many still live with consequenses made as a teen that still affect you?
by megsmomma inwith so many of us having gotten baptised at a young age and now dealing with the results of it.... it made me wonder how many decisions made at a young age still could and do affect your life.. example: when i was 14 i thought it was a good idea to marry this weird brother that was our land lord.
(thank goodness i was too young to do so) also, i thought it was a good idea to have pet monkeys....and a good idea to have my own apartment with several other young jw sisters...even thinking it would be a good idea to have babies.... i was too young to do any of those things...so i have no consequences from having those ideas....yet, getting dunked at that age was perfectly acceptable....and now i still pay the price.. are there any things you can think of that you would have done at a young age that could have made you pay for years to come?.
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megsmomma
Soooooooo......all of the "bad decisions" that affect us to this day are related to being a JW (for the most part) That is why it stinks so bad!
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How many still live with consequenses made as a teen that still affect you?
by megsmomma inwith so many of us having gotten baptised at a young age and now dealing with the results of it.... it made me wonder how many decisions made at a young age still could and do affect your life.. example: when i was 14 i thought it was a good idea to marry this weird brother that was our land lord.
(thank goodness i was too young to do so) also, i thought it was a good idea to have pet monkeys....and a good idea to have my own apartment with several other young jw sisters...even thinking it would be a good idea to have babies.... i was too young to do any of those things...so i have no consequences from having those ideas....yet, getting dunked at that age was perfectly acceptable....and now i still pay the price.. are there any things you can think of that you would have done at a young age that could have made you pay for years to come?.
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megsmomma
With so many of us having gotten baptised at a young age and now dealing with the results of it...
It made me wonder how many decisions made at a young age still could and do affect your life.
Example: When I was 14 I thought it was a good idea to marry this weird brother that was our land lord. (Thank goodness I was too young to do so) also, I thought it was a good idea to have pet monkeys....and a good idea to have my own apartment with several other young JW sisters...even thinking it would be a good idea to have babies...
I was too young to do any of those things...so I have no consequences from having those ideas....yet, getting dunked at that age was perfectly acceptable....and now I still pay the price.
Are there any things you can think of that you would have done at a young age that could have made you pay for years to come?
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Got a Tract in my mailbox!
by Nosferatu inguess who i got a tract from?.
....and it wasn't the jws :).
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megsmomma
Did the tract move you?
Did it have good information?
Did you read it?
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Baptisim BlackMail
by OUTLAW inyou had to get baptised,because of parental pressure..you had to get baptised,to date a potential mate..you had to get baptised,to get married at the kingdom hall..you had to get baptised,to keep your marriage together..you had to get baptised or god would kill you at armageddon.....the list go`s on......wbt$ rules are such that,your life can be disrupted or destroyed unless your a baptised jehovah`s witness.....were you forced into being baptised?...outlaw
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megsmomma
Exactley Outlaw....I never remembered the date....didn't even try too.(On a side note... My mom doesn't know the date either.)
On the day I was baptised....It was in MA and after I got changed and ready to go back to the assembly from the hotel.....No one waited for me...no one was friendly enough for me to talk to for a person to walk back with. I ended up lost and in an alley...pretty scared.......all alone.....And the Chuckey Cheese party was a big disappointment too....with my family all CRABBY because we had just spent all day at a convention.