i went to the coffee shop this morning to get my double shot.
so i'm sitting there and flipping through the morning's newspaper, then it hit me that i can't focus on reading because my brain was subconsciously picking some noise, a repeating sound of something.
yup you've guessed it right.
Like, way more than I, like, mean to.
Seriously, I think I probably say it more than I realize. Recently, I've been interviewed a few times for local newspaper articles. The first thing I said to the reporters was "You won't actually quote me saying "like", will you? Can you edit that out if I say it?" I don't want to sound like a valley girl. I don't think I'm as bad as the girls you encountered though. (I hope not!)
i believe that i am experiencing a profound change in my personality, and those changes are at a stage where i have honestly contemplated this recently.
honestly.. i don't think i could ever do it - anyone who has followed me on the boards here know that i am neither suicidal nor an apologist for that lot.
yet, having been off work for a few weeks now with surgical recovery, i have had time to make assessment of my future.
Jeff-I think this nasty Indiana weather is getting to all of us. As I am typing, it is cold and has been snowing all day!!! On April 14th - snowing!!! Ughh.
I do know exactly where you're coming from. When I joined the borg, I was 18. I literally dumped my very good friends from high school, on the advice of the elders, because I was told shouldn't want or need "worldly" friends anymore. At that young age, the base from which to draw my group of friends was only from high school. So when I dumped them, I literally had NO friends, except my then boyfriend Little Drummer Boy, and the new fake "friends" in the KH. We went through the "love bombing" and thought we had all the friends we could want. Until we were no longer the recipients of the love bombing and we very quickly became invisible. We never developed very strong friendships with any JWs, because it seemed you could never really just talk to someone; you always have to be monitoring what you say because someone might be "stumbled" or think that you're becoming weak. And having hobbies? What are hobbies when you're a JW? I could go on and on.
Now we're in your same predicament. I do like all the people I work with, but I wouldn't say I'm close friends with them. We don't socialize outside of work. It's really hard to start over in rebuilding a social life.
And by the way - I would totally love to attend an Indiana apostafest. Too bad the one we tried to talk up last fall attracted virtually NO interest. COME ON, INDIANA PEOPLE! HOW ABOUT AN APOSTAFEST THIS SUMMER?!!!
Hang in there. We're looking forward to a BBQ or a "field trip" with you and the family soon!
some people's avatars make me smile, others make me think.
there are some that i just love to look at.
here are some of my favorites off the top of my head.
I guess no one likes a cute nurse.
i noticed someone correcting spelling for a couple of posters.
it reminded me of a couple of things that really bug me.. "momentarily" as in "thank you for holding.
someone will be with you momentarily.
Along the same lines, here's a link to a thread about misspelled and mispronounced words, or general grammar errors (in case you missed it):
i wanted to thank all of you who sent prayers and warm thoughts and healing vibes in the direction of my sister in law in california who found out in november that she had pancreatic cancer at age 44. she managed to get five more months before she could fight no more.
my father called yesterday to tell me that despite everyone's best efforts, that she has only a couple days at most to live and that her organs are shutting down.
they are trying to keep her as comfortable as possible and she is surrounded by her family and has a strong faith as a mormon that this isnt the end for her.
LovesDubs: I'm so sorry to hear about her. I know you've been so concerned about her. It's wonderful that you have been so supportive of her and of your husband. It's hard to know what to say or do when you're just waiting out someone's final hours. But I'm sure she'll know you're there and that will bring her some comfort.
My husband, Little Drummer Boy, lost his sister to lung cancer when she was 50 (LDB was about 29 at the time). She died at home with the whole family around her. It was actually quiet and pretty low-key. We just sat around her bed and talked as though she was alert and conversing, even though she was semi-comatose. We cried, we laughed, we told stories. This was exactly what his sister wanted: to be surrounded by her family when she passed away.
My condolances to you and your family.
as some of you know, my daughter has been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder.
its been years of dealing with it, until a proper diagnosis, plus she has addictions....alcohol and drugs.
she did get approved for disability and just now has medical benefits.
I talked to the shrink about me being bi-polar and they sort of dismissed it. I told them that I felt like I fought the symptoms alot when I was a young adult. She did not seem to think much was wrong with me as I keep a job and have a house etc etc etc.
Purple-regarding the above quote, you should get another opinion. When you say you saw a "shrink", do you mean a psychiatrist or a psychologist? The point she made about not much being wrong with you because you keep a job and have a house is absurd. LOTS of people with bipolar are generally responsible, functional, and intelligent adults. Little Drummer Boy is a great example. Until last August, he kept the same job (his own business) for 12 years. He quit on his own to get away from the borg and finish college. We have a home, a child, and live a fairly normal life. I'm not saying I think you have bipolar, but if you're concerned that you do, see a good psychiatrist who will spend time with you and make an educated diagnosis.
LDB and I have been married for 13 1/2 years, and we've been through lots of ups and downs with his bipolar disorder. One thing you should remind yourself of is that it's not your fault your daughter has this problem, so don't beat yourself up about it. You also cannot fix the problem or make it go away. You can, however, educate yourself about the disorder using reputable sources. This will equip you to be understanding when your daughter acts differently or says hurtful things. Be as patient as possible and be supportive when she goes through adjustments in medications; these are some of the most trying times. Med changes can affect her energy, moods, appetite, motivation, etc.
I cannot stress to you, however, the importance of taking care of yourself while you're supporting your daughter. After all, you're only human and you're her mother. You're not a live-in psychologist and you should not be expected to ignore your own emotions and needs. Take care of yourself so that you can help support her. Take care and PM me anytime! Exwitless
ok, monday i woke up with a killer backache.
.turned out i sprained my back and was to get to the chiro again the next day.
.except, my 6 yo was in the middle of a hideous athsma attack from mon night on.
Sorry to hear about your son's kidney problem. I can totally relate, because our son (now 9) was diagnosed with hydronephrosis and megaureter before he was born. When he was 10 days old, we took him to a pediatric urologist at a children's hospital. From then on, it was an every 2-4 month trip to see the doctor and have oodles of tests done. They kept hoping it would resolve on it's own (80% of cases resolve by age 2 or 3), but it just kept getting worse. His kidney function was compromised and his right kidney was so enlarged it was at risk for rupture if he fell or got bumped in the side. So finally at age 4, he had to have surgery to correct the problem. They had to reimplant the ureters in new places on his bladder, surgically taper the right ureter because it was so stretched out, and excise 3 diverticuli from his bladder. He was in the hospital for about 3 days, and had a catheter for about 10 days. He had to have a couple of other outpatient surgeries in the months after that because of a complication, but overall it made a huge difference in his kidney. Now he just has to go about every 18 months for an ultrasound. So far, so good.
Sounds like your son has probably been worsening over time without having any symptoms until now. Poor guy! I feel for him. Whatever you do, see a good pediatric urologist for this. From the sounds of it, he may need to have surgery to correct it, but it won't be until they can guarantee he doesn't have an active infection. I'm sure he'll do fine - and you will too.
Keep us posted and let us know what their plans are for him. Feel free to PM me if you want to!
let it be this board or any other board, are you comfortable with the fact that whatever you post on the internet will be viewable for a long time.. maybe when you'll be very old, you'll find posts that you made a very long time ago..
Just as in any other situation in life, we all do or say things impulsively or allow our emotions to speak before we think. Having what we post in print is little different than the things we have said to others in our lives we wish we could take back. Once it's done, it's done. I wouldn't behave any differently here than I would if I were sitting in a room talking to you all.
i saw another thread about "deviled eggs" and it made me think about this.
i'll start:.
deviled eggs.
We have a deli nearby called "Heavenly Ham". (I don't know if it's a chain restaurant or just a local one.) Anyway, I guess only the annointed should eat there.
...what kind of thread topic produces the longest threads?.
what interests you, and are you put off once the thread reaches ten pages??.
lt, of the "starting a minimus-style thread" class.
I love humorous threads. I'll never forget when LDB and I lurked on this site for a few weeks before we joined...There was the thread about making your own Watchtower cover spoofs. I laughed so hard, tears were rolling down my face. We really needed that laugh at the time. I still enjoy the laughs from this board.
I also enjoy medical-related topics (that's the nurse in me.)
I hate to join a topic that's more than about 3 pages long if it's a deep discussion (ie evolution vs. creation, atheism vs christianity, etc.). I'm afraid if I didn't read every single post very carefully before I join the discussion, I'll get trampled on for misunderstanding, misconstruing, and so on.
Most topics that start out VERY long and drawn out are not likely to get my attention. (Does this mean I have a short attention span? )
