Hi Tammy:
Your grieving is a natural reaction to the process. You are basically "retracting" yourself from a high control group - although it is a positive step you are also finding a large part of your life is now empty. It is no longer controlled and is therefore open/void.
The first thing you need to do is fill your void space with positive actions. Is there a hobby or sport you were always interested in? Take dance classes, ice skating classes, or a class at your community college. Not only will you be gaining back your life - but you'll meet new people and make new friends - creating or expanding your social existience outside of the JW club.
I, and most others here, went through the same thing.
At first I was scared, couldn't believe they were wrong, and now how do I put everything in perspective?
Then I got angry - how could this happen? How could I have been so blind? They stole my childhood and my family!
The anger stayed with me for about a year or more. But then I moved past it and have come to a point in life where I want to help others - and can also see the past as a part of who I am.
You will eventually stand before this huge stone wall of the JW existence and do one of two things: (1) let it stop you from moving on with your life, or (2) climb on top - put it under your feet and find out what is open to you on the other side.
Keep moving ahead Tammy - this is a tough road right now but it will get better!