(((Plum)))
Every person must decide what is best for themselves. There are two types of people in this world (1) People who truly care about others, and although they may not agree or approve of your decision they will be there when you need them, and (2) People who want to control you will only be your friend if you comply with their view of reality. And the truth is you can find these people inside AND outside of all religions - it's just part of human nature.
I have two pieces of advice for you (1) never tell yourself you can't change your mind - we are constantly evolving and growing and what is right at one time in our life may not be at another - give yourself the freedom to make choices - both now and in the future, and (2) keep your eye out for the first type of people I listed above- these are the ones that are secure enough in themselves that they don't feel the need to pressure YOU to agree with them.
I wish you the best in your life - and remember - you can always come back here - you don't HAVE to be an x-jw to drop in and say Hi to all of us.
Ok - one last question - what does your name refer to? Is it a reference to the Mopar car color Plum Crazy? Just wondering because I have a 69 charger that I'm planning on painting that color.