Hello Elizabeth.:)
It is great that you are starting to get interested in spiritual matters at such a young age...I`m 24, but still feel like a teenager at heart.hihi
I have been raised in `the truth', so I understand exactly how you are feeling now. I also had an interest in spirituality but as I grew up, I realised that even though the Witnesses where mostly good people who wanted to please God...there were other options. And I needed to dig deeper, not just look a bit around. This the Watchtower doesn't allow. You know what they say...it's like in relationships, if there are more things that make you unhappy then happy, you should reconsider. Well, after a while, I realised that it was time to do just that.
Spirituality is infinite, I learn more and more everyday without restrains. And I am free to look everywhere I want, in any book that interest me, or any path that I am curious to learn more about. Most importantly, I make a point of considering both sides of every point. You would be surprised of all the things you would discover if you let your mind go free. I feel so much more happy now.
I also needed a purpose, I felt my life wasn't all it could be (and I was in the Witnesses at that time). Well I say...*study*, give yourself a purpose to educate yourself in everything you have an interest in. Buy or make a blank-page book, or even a binder. And take notes, classify them, read about as many subject as you can. Get more in depth knowledge about ancient religions, and christianity, Bible history and origins...and look at both side of it, they are really quite interesting. Did you know that...for example, the word pagan designated the peasant people. The people of the earth, that lived very close to nature, celebrated the seasons. Even before anyone started to beleive in such things as devils and demons. Even before christianity appeared. Learn herb-lore, bring yourself close to nature and everything beautiful that is around you, thank what creator you beleive in for all of it. This, to me, has been the most fullfilling spiritual experience I have had. Take a walk where there are beautiful old trees, listen to the birds sings, look at the blue sky...you will learn more and be more grateful then in any cathedral or Kingdom hall you will go to. You will feel free, you will live by the moral rules you make for yourself, and not those some men put upon you...