Frobrisher,
You have read and made summary of how you see this board, and I personally can only totally agree and commend you for the honesty in speaking up. Your depth of feelings run counter to so much expression of, and I agree, hate. I have been here a month or so, to listen, learn, help or be helped, and my conclusion is that after being in the truth for 50 odd years, I never did grasp the real meaning of 'gnashing of teeth.'
You obviously have great love of Jehovah God, and realize we all are in an imperfect way trying to abide by the principles of Christ. Please don't give up and accept that you must be drawn to the truth else you would be a happy member of this and other groups dedicated against love of God and ther Christian principles. I say groups, because in here are some lovely and kind and hurt people, who have been in the truth and hurt by both Society and individual acts, and sometimes by our own imperfections.
My respects, gdt.