Posts by FMZ

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The Things You Forgive (vent/eulogy of sorts)

by hemp lover in

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you forgive her for never not once setting foot in your house.. you forgive her for yelling at you almost every day, because if she hadnt yelled at you, if she had been one of those calm-voiced, even-tempered kind of moms, the kind who wasnt enraged by a child who bumped the vacuum into the furniture or one who didnt always scrub out the sink with zud after washing the dishes, then you wouldnt, years later, have been able to recognize the shock and pain in your own daughters eyes when you lose your temper and lash out stupidly, momentarily, always apologetically (after the fact), but never, it seems, for the last time (unfortunately) and without the memory of a childhood filled with longing for an inch of approval from the one person who refused to give it, then you might not have recognized that same desire and need for acknowledgement in your own child and you might not give it to her at every opportunity (as you do, as she deserves).. you forgive her for waiting five days to take you to the doctor when you broke your wrist, because those five days of pain, during which you were encouraged to just stop babying it, will lead to the first of only two apologies she will ever extend to you.

she just couldnt imagine how anyone could break a bone the way you described it happening.

you seek a small measure of revenge by waiting 20 years to tell her how you really broke it.. you forgive her for slapping you when you laughed at her during one of her screaming fits.

FMZ

Hemp, this was a beautiful post. Absolutely beautiful. And, although I am sure this post was made more for you than us, thankyou.

I am sorry for your loss. Give FOSHLL a big hug from us all.

Always in love

FMZ

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how to deal with a break up.please help?

by fleaman uk in

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i dont start many topics,but i have just split up with my longterm and wonderful girlfriend.i have never experienced such a black,deathlike feeling in my entire 35 years on this planet.i guess that is normal.. i cant see beyond this evening.i cant imagine loving again..ever.sorry for the drama(its really not like me),but i am at the end of my tether.. no-one could ever replace that wonderful,caring,generous sweet natured girl.. devastated and in need of any advice.. (sorry all,i know there are far worse things happening in the world)

FMZ

Fleaman, I am right there with you mate. Just recently was separated from the love of my life, my beautiful wife. I know the complete emptiness you feel.

I can only empathize, my friend.

FMZ

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Getting ready to Wander again...not a good place this time...

by wanderlustguy in

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i just found out i have one more big out of town assignment.

looks like my home on the beach is going to have to wait another month.

this one is going to be tough.

FMZ

Don't let your past take you over. Run at it head-on, and scream your battle cry. When all is done, you will have killed your demons.

FMZ

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LittleToe's Travels - Summer of 2005

by LittleToe in

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it's been so long since i wrote a travelogue, i hardly know where to begin.

i've sat down to begin this a couple of times, only to abandon it.

alas, i must finally put thoughts to page, if only in a vain attempt to exorcise them from my head.

FMZ

Ross... how much for a home in St. Kilda? heh. Sounds like where I need to be right now :P.

Beautiful description of your travels as always mate. Glad you enjoyed.

FMZ

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I'M HOME

by Dansk in

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i'll have to make this brief because it's getting late.. i've had my first batch of chemotherapy and thus far everything feels fine!

thank you so much for all the cards (and some presents, too!!!).

forgive me for not thanking all of you individually but i have received a good number.

FMZ

Welcome back dude. Glad you are doing better.

FMZ :)

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tinkerbell lights......

by BlackSwan of Memphis in

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okay, here's the deal...... .

i was in the shower and had an odd experience.

(no jokes).

FMZ

Elsewhere, if this was actually caused by a damaged retina, why would the lights go away when Blackswan closed her eyes? (I guess I am only assuming she couldn't see them when her eyes were closed, as she said "I closed my eyes and when I opened them, there was still a sprinkling there." There could well be an explanation that is perfectly acceptable in today's scientific realm, but closing one's eyes only blocks out light that is let into the eye, and if these lights did go away when she closed her eyes, that means the source of light was external.

Just a thought..

FMZ

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