Preston, that is so touching. Reading your post was enlightening as I have often given thought to aspects you mention, that the internet is full of very lonely disturbed indiviuals typing their hearts and souls on a freeboard.
With the world being as huge as it is, and with the advent of the internet, reducing it to nothing larger than a television screen, the world of cyberspace can seem so antiseptic and overwhelming at the same time, we can hide behind our avitars and spout things for which many have no understanding whatsoever what they are saying. Many will spout their prejudices without having to worry about getting caught, or meeting that very same person down a back street oneday. It's a sad aspect of the nature of the beast.
On the other hand, some who try their best to use this vehicle as a forum for positive change make great progress. I personally have a voice that can be heard here. I was one not to speak out or up for myself or for anything I believed in.
Along with the transformation that has been taking place in me over time, from having the scales removed from my eyes regarding life in OZ, I have also been more vocal in real life. I try very hard to interact with my neighbors in my community, something that was always verbodden when under the regime of the WTS. I have socially made great strides and have surprised myself in just how much I can do.
I cannot speak to the issues of your being gay, but I can say that we all have need of keeping a keen eye on our own individual ghost and skeletons that exist in the closets of everyone, from Prince, to the Pope, to the President. Small and great, we are all just skeletons supported by weakly flesh.
I've learned very well how not to judge or overly criticize because I have a fleet of container ships loaded with baggage. A history, a questionable past, and it has taught the benefit of learning how to let some things go.
I hope that this is your last post for the year and not the last past for your life, as I have read several of the things you respond to, and you always stick out in my mind.
Would I like to know you if we met in real life? , I don't know, but even while being in the truth for the brief moment I was, I found that the brothers who were gay, in their former and even present lives, ( Once a Marine, Always a Marine ) were some of the most honest and truly down to earth people you would ever choose to be with, and though not being gay myself, I could always feel at home in their prescense, where it was often impossible to be myself around the regs.
I wish you all the best that this life can bring to you.
Much Respect.