After awakening from the lull of sleep of the WTBTS, I've come to appreciate just how unconscious I was for the years of having been in and around the truth.
Though technically, in a state of mental, spiritual and emotional suspended animation during the days of associating with the Organisation, I now have the opportunity to go on the attack for life, to be able to tear into it, savoring it for what it is, painfully difficult to get thru, but oh such a pleasure to experience when not imprisoned by the hellish limitations that the Society has placed upon its members for generations.
The concentration camp mentality no longer keeps me held hostage as a prisoner of my own mind. I'm not affraid to feel. I can get angry, and still be OK, I can cry, and no longer feel lost when doing it. I can see my life, and the lives of others come to a point where they blend and take on an energy greater than ourselves, a comforting energy that's protective, nurturing and patient, loving and kind because it recognizes that we are first mortal, human, with failings, faults and shortcomings. Though we will be held responsible for our thoughts, deeds and actions during this walk, I have the faith that allows me to walk thru this world, no longer as a fearful tepid spectator in the games of life, but as an active participant.
Am I living or just existing? Surely, I would have to say living, existing would have me not trying to make a difference in my life, or the lives of others, especially many of you who I've been given the blessed privilege of coming to know. Life is not here at the expense of having to assure our happiness, there are difficult days and hours associated with being on this planet, but to walk thru the fire of trial and tribulation, regardless, and the courage that's required to go thru it, when coming out on the opposite side and having lived thru it, the victory......that's the sweetness!!!
Love Always: Arthur