Ashamed of being a sucker..definitely...I mean its almost as lame as telling everyone you believed for 35 yrs in the tooth fairy !!
After telling the elders at my JDC to shove it ! I became very anti JW , then openly anti Christianity ,,,that was ten years ago and even now I still froth at the mouth if someone asks me if I'm still a JW ! I don't go around JW bashing though and as part of my recovery which I am only now confronting and dealing with I am almost too ashamed to tell people what a sucker I was..so I generally avoid all topics religion related. Thanks to Simon for this forum ,so that at least here my healing can begin.
So in answer I guess I prefer to say that "I am proud to be free" and have no-one laugh at me behind my back anymore
Nadsam